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It's been awhile since my last post...saying that almost feels like I am going to confession...you know like when you would go to the priest and have to tell him how long it's been since your last confession...always hated that...hated going to confession, bad experience when I was little. Anyway that's a subject for another day. So what's been happening in the world of MeMam? Lots and lots -- however, this time has been very emotional and stressful for me. I am trying to emerge to find happiness. I keep reminding myself that I am truly blessed to have such wonderful family and friends and that everything else is just trivial...but it's hard.

I want to start by saying that I have such an amazing son. He truly is a gentle soul. How could I be so lucky to have him? I got a wake up call in August from God. Bascially, decisions I have made in my life need to be changed especially because in order to get my attention, God had to mess with my kids. We had to make the decision to not have Alex return to St. Ambrose this year. We scrambled to find something suitable for him in the way of a public school. With having to live in the city, we are bound by the ridiculous city school districts. Fortunately, we live in a pretty decent area and the school Alex is attending seems to be OK. It's right smack in the middle of the Holly Hills neighborhood so it's in a decent area. He has been adjusting very well. I cried one day asking him if he hates me for him having to leave all his friends. He gently told me "No". He has been making excellent grades and has made new friends. I struggle with the whole private vs public school. I don't know if I would have this battle if we lived in a good county school district. But my sister, who I leaned on heavily during this trying time in my life, informed that I was a little biased because I attended all private schools. I really value my catholic education but with my sister having attended both private and public, she really shed some light for me on this whole matter. Really made me open my eyes...and for that, I thank her! There is nothing wrong with Alex attending a public school. We have come to the realization that on our salaries, we just could not afford private high school for Alex. Something that was really hard to swallow.

So, we are at a crossroad in our life. Olivia starts Kindergarten next year and Alex will go to middle school. I am desperate to find a good school for my children. Jimmy is struggling with whether or not to stay at his job - which he loves - or find something else so we can move out of the city and into a better school district. So needless to say, I have felt like the weight of the world is on my shoulder!

Olivia finally starts her preschool class on Wednesday. I am keeping my fingers crossed that things go smoothly. The last couple of weeks she has slipped a little in her maturity level. School has noticed and I've noticed. Trying to figure out what is going on in that pretty little head of hers. I am sure all the stress at home is the issue. Another hard thing to swallow. It's so hard to shield your kids from your emotions, bad days, etc. I try but I know they can sense it. However, she is doing excellent in her dance and swim class. After her dance class last Tuesday, she came out of the classroom and told me her dance class was "Awesome"! She is really enjoying both.

Whew...it feels kind of nice to write again. For awhile, I was thinking of not blogging anymore but I think I'll try to continue. I think my problem is I want to censor my thoughts...so I'll stop here for now...to be continued...

Powerful - Dedicated to all those who lost their battle and to all the Survivors

I am feeling very emotional right now...I just watched Wednesday night's So You Think You Can Dance show. The last song was perfomed by two of my favorite dancers on the show. This routine was so amazing, touching and powerful, it just blew my mind away!

The dance was interpretted as a woman dealing with breast cancer. As soon as I saw Melissa with her head wrapped in the scarf, a flood of emotions overtook my body, my mind, my soul. Immediately, the memories of the fight my mother-in-law put up for four years dealing with ovarian cancer, the memories of what we went through watching what this horrible disease was doing to her, hoping, praying that she would overcome, the fight she put up, so brave, so much strength. She was so amazingly strong, such an amazing woman. But in the end, we lost her. Gone but never forgotten. My heart still grieves for my son, for his loss of such an incredible grandmother. Alex was her life. He still grieves for her. My heart also grieves for my daughter who will never know her grandmother. How to portray to her what an amazing woman her grandmother was? I do think she knows...I believe she's already met her but damn...why?

Why? That seems to be the question, we've asked ourselves since hearing the diagnosis. We will never know God's plan. Why? Also a question I asked myself after watching my mother-in-law succumb to cancer and then dealing with both of my Grandmother's fight with cancer. After my mother-in-law passed away, my sister-in-law told me that her death will have a different meaning to all of us. There was a reason for each of us why she had to go so early. For me, I believe she had to go because I needed to prepare my son for the loss of his Grandmother in order to prepare myself for the loss of my own Grandmothers.

Watching this dance routine also made me think of two other family members specifically struck with breast cancer. A second cousin I really didn't have the privilege of knowing well but oh, how I remember her funeral. How wrong it was to lose someone so young. A mother burying her child. The loss of a sister. Then, the thought of how privileged I am to get to know her sister who is a breast cancer survivor. My heart aches because I can only imagine what she went through. I am sure she showed strength, courage and hope. She is truly an amazing woman! My prayers go up that all things remain good for her in her life.

No one should have to deal with this but for those who have fought and lost and for those who have fought and won -- you are my hero!!

Happy 5th Birthday Olivia!

July 15th, 2004 at 9:13 a.m. Olivia Mary Louise Morgan arrived in this world via C-section. She had the most perfect round little face! I was so excited to have a girl. She already had so many cute dresses and outfits hanging in her closet. I just couldn't wait to play dress up with her!! Mother and Daughter. How exciting!

As the months wore on, Olivia's personality emerged. I always tell people that her being breech was an early indiction for me that this little one was going to be independent and stubborn. No going by the book for her. But, oh, how I love her so!!

She really is my sweet Angel. We definitely knock heads -- especially since I will admit that I a stubborn, type A, independent girl myself! But Olivia really melts my heart. She loves to cuddle and I just love when she does. These moments, I cherish.

So today, I celebrate her...my baby girl! As she turns one whole hand! This morning, I gently woke Olivia by singing her Happy Birthday and giving lots of kisses. She wasn't ready to wake up but once Jimmy mentioned presents in the bed, she was up like a flash of lightning. I got her a t-shirt that says Little Miss Stubborn and the little face is yelling "No" - couldn't resist. I also got her a swimsuit cover up for her weekly swim lessons. Now on to the good stuff. I got her a Dora book -- lately she has really been into reading and wanting to learn what the words say. Then she opened the Barbie. This is no ordinary Barbie -- oh no -- this is Tattoo Barbie. Comes with tattoos for you and for Barbie! Olivia immediately wanted a tattoo on -- so I obliged. When we got home from school, she put about 6 others on her arm. What a hoot!

So we got ready for school and ran to Schnucks to get her a cookie cake. She couldn't wait to share with her friends. Later that night when we were snuggling in bed, we talked about her day. She got to wear a crown all day and they put a candle in her cake and she got to blow it out. She showed me how she did it. Soooo cute!

After dinner, we decided to take her for a birthday treat. She chose ice cream so we took her to Ted Drewes. She picked a chocolate dipped cone and needless to say, it was everywhere. But what a way to celebrate your birthday than covered in ice cream! During out ice cream eating, Auntie called to wish her a Happy Birthday. As soon as Olivia heard Auntie's voice she proudly proclaimed that she is 5 now!! How incredibly adorable. She told Auntie all about her day! Then she talked to Uncle Bryan. Priceless.

So needless to say, my baby girl has a great birthday. And, I've had great days ever since she came into my life! Such a joy! Can't wait for the birthday party next weekend -- Aunt Christine is making her a Barbie cake. She is going to love it!!!

Happy 5th Birthday Olivia! Love you to moon and back!!

Godspell

Last night I went to see one of my most favorite plays -- Godspell. It was playing at the Muny. The first time I saw Godspell was when I was a junior in high school. My high school put Godspell on for our spring musical. My drama teacher urged me to try out but I was too scared. After seeing the play, I was so disappointed in myself for not trying. I fell in love with it! Last night, Liz reminded me that her high school also put the play on and we went to see it together. I didn't remember that until she reminded me. Funny. But through the years, my love for this play never waivered. Godspell is also one of Jimmy's favorites. He had the pleasure of being surrounded by the theater growing up. Going to countless shows. Something that I truly love and would love to start as a tradition with my own kids as his parents did with him. So back to Godspell...we have the soundtrack and love to play it. So of course, it's only obvious that Alex would take a liking to it too. We each have our own favorite! I've always wanted to take Alex to see the play and Godspell isn't usually one that comes back year after year. So you can imagine how ecstatic I was to find that it was coming to the Muny this summer. I put my feelers out to everyone I knew regarding tickets. Then one day a few weeks ago, a mass e-mail went out to all the staff in my firm regarding 4 free tickets to the Muny to the first responder. When I checked to see what plays the tickets were for, I about jumped out of my seat. Godspell was listed as was another that I didn't care about. I immediately called the girl who sent the e-mail asking if she still had the Godspell tickets available. Woo Hoo! They were mine to come pick up!! I was so excited. I could not wait to tell Alex. I called Jimmy and he deflated my balloon a little saying he didn't think he was going to get to go because of all the All Star festivities. He figured he would be working and yep -- he worked. So of course, my first thought was Liz. We love to do things like this and I know the kids would enjoy having her come along. She freed up her schedule and was available to go -- woo hoo!!! So after finding out I won, I wrote a status update on my Facebook, shouting out to the world that I had scored tickets to Godspell. Cousin Lori inquired as to which night because she and Cousin Gayle have season tickets on Monday. OMG -- Monday night was the night on MY tickets too!! As the weeks wore on and the date drew closer, Cousin Lori mentioned that her and Angela and Gayle and Gayle's date usually go to dinner before the Muny. Oooh...dinner and the theater so sophisticated -- so fun!!! Lori said Angela was wanting Helen's wings and anyone who knows me knows that Helen's wings are my all time fav!! I can have those anytime, anyplace -- ok well the place to have them is Helen's but you get my drift...I love Helen's wings. I love them so much that my Dad came up with a recipe and will make them for me on special occassions. Love that and him. Ok, got off the subject...so anyway, Lori asked if we wanted to meet for dinner at Helen's before the Muny. You know it...I was so pysched...Helen's wings and Godspell....my life is complete!!! The only wrench thrown in the fire was Alex's allergic reaction. The doctor indicated no outside activities for him. But when I spoke with her on Saturday I indicated we had Muny tickets and could he go. She said "yes". Woo Hoo...bring back the excitement!! On Saturday we shopped for battery-powered fans because Dr. said he had to stay cool and not sweat. Bought two cheap $1.50 fans and wouldn't you know it they both fell apart before the batteries were even inserted. Oh well...he could use the book to fan himself.

So yesterday, I could not contain my excitement. The end of the work day could not get here fast enough...finally....ding, ding, ding, the bell has rung and the day is through. Now there really is no bell but I thought you might like the effect. I rush to pick Olivia up from school. Not a good sign as I drive up and she runs away to hide in a jungle gym. She really does love school and some days is just not ready to go home. After a little coaxing, she is ready. As we walk to the car, I remind her we are going to pick up Auntie and Alex and go see a play. Run home, pick up Alex and change my clothes. We are on a role...almost on time...meeting cousins at 6. Then I find out Cousin Gayle has asked Deb Do to be her date. Yippee! So excited. I pick up Liz and we get to Helen's to find we are in this little private room. So excited. Lori and Angela and Deb Do are there waiting for us. In our room was this huge Clydesdale. Olivia spots it immediately..but seriously you couldn't miss it. So knowing Olivia's love for horses, Deb Do tells her she can get on it. WHAT? Are you kidding me...don't tell her that she will think you are serious! So we waited for Gayle to get there. I couldn't wait to see my favorite Dirty Dancing Partner. It's so funny how that all started and that story is for another blog since this one is ALL about GODSPELL! YAY!! Gayle arrives! So we ordered our food -- got me my wings but my stomach was bothering me so I didn't eat many. Alex ordered the wings too but only ate 1 and a half claiming they were too spicy...woo hoo, more for Mama!!! During this time, Lori brought out her camera. Ugh! Ok, it was fine...well Olivia loves taking pictures so she asked if she could take a picture of the horse. Well that turned into a bunch of other pictures. She just kept going around snapping photos. We successfully returned the camera to its rightful owner and finished dinner. Off to the Muny! Woo Hoo! I followed Lori since she is the Muny expert on where to park, etc. Her parting words to me were "keep up if you can". I thought she meant literally. Seriously we did the speed limit in the slow lane! OK so she said she was setting an example for her daughter...ok, wink, wink, we get ya!! We got to the Muny with a few minutes to spare so Lori took the infamous Muny pics. Then, Olivia got the camera back again somehow and decided to take more pictures. Are you kidding me? Guess that girl knows who she is dealing with -- one who loves to take pictures herself. So off to our seats. My tickets were for Section A-7 -- the section after the boxes. Pretty good seats -- they were to the side but OK. The Cousin's season tickets are in the B section -- so we said our good-byes and parted ways singing "Day by Day", "Day by Day". The show started after a few minutes of arriving in our seats. Of course, once the play started Alex started in with he couldn't see. I guess this boy thinks that all views in a theater are unobstructed. So I picked up Olivia and put her in my lap and he moved to her seat. She loved seeing all the kids on stage and the play really did keep her interest. But she quickly left my lap and headed for Auntie's. I loved seeing Alex get into his favorite songs. How blessed I was to have gotten these tickets for free and be able to share them with him. We really enjoyed the show. I shed a tear or two, Ok, maybe ten or twenty but only during the part that always tears me up. The part where the disciples are telling Jesus their good-bye's and giving him hugs. When I see this, it makes me think of how awesome it would be to have that moment in your life to tell the person you love one last good-bye. How I would have loved to have given my mother-in-law, my Grandma's, my Grandpa's just one last, conscious, tight, tight hug or Eeeennnnaaa! before saying good-bye forever! (Yes, I believe you should do these things daily but to have that last moment before never seeing them again is what I am refering to.) OK, , so that was my crying moment as it is every time I see that play. So yeah, loved this play! Olivia even got the premise when they were putting "Jesus on the cross". She told Auntie Jesus was going to die. So glad to know that this Catholic education I am paying for is doing good! So needless to say, we had a great night. The weather was perfect. Alex didn't even need a fan. After the show, we walked to the car and all chatted a minute...of course, we laughed and laughed. That's the one thing I love about the people I spent last night with...they always make me laugh. Something I love to do! Thank you to the attorney in my office who gave up his tickets so I could make some memories with my family! Love that and LOVE GODSPELL!

Emotions

So I watched the Michael Jackson Memorial tonight and as I watched I pondered on my own life. While I have not done extragavent, paving the way kinds of things, I wonder if when I am gone people will feel...really feel for me. Have I made enough of an impression on people's lives that I will always be remembered or am I someone just standing in a crowd? As I live my day to day life, I always think "what will my kids remember most about me and about growing up". I hope they are happy.

Have you ever seen someone - possibly even met briefly and you felt in that instant that you would really love to get to know them better or just think they are a neat person and would love to have them as a friend. To know them on a regular basis? I feel that emotion all too often. I wonder if someone ever feels that way about me. Do I get thought of by someone and just not know it? I consider myself an introvert with extrovert tendancies. I thrive on being with other extroverts who can bring me out of my shell. Most of the time I think I sound stupid and don't know what to say because I worry too much about what that person is thinking of me. So usually I don't say anything. Why? Why should it matter? I don't know. I hate when I feel this way. I hate always feeling so much emotion. I feel like I need a barrier up to protect me from getting hurt. It's these uncertainties in life that just get the better of me.

Peace and happiness. Find me. I think it only appropriate to say the Serenity Prayer here. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.

I apologize to my readers for such a downer blog...but after all, it is my blog and these are my thoughts. I felt the need to put them down on paper. Sorry.

Alone

Alone -- this word is both frightening and glorious. I never want to find myself truly alone. So maybe alone isn't the right word -- maybe the right word is Quiet!

It sure is quiet around my house! Jimmy and the kids went to spend the week in Little Rock. Camp and School don't open until June 8th so Jimmy took the week off and decided to spend it with his family. His Dad came up on Friday and we got to spend some time with him here in STL -- enjoying food and each other before they all left on Sunday. We went to Mr. B's on Friday night -- we used to frequent that place about twice a week when my in-laws lived here. Saturday we enjoyed our favorite Greek restaurant for lunch and tried a sushi restaurant for dinner. Even though it seems like his visit centered around food, we had a great time visiting with friends and just spending time together. He filled me in on some family stories after I told him I wanted to put together 2 bound books of my side and Jimmy's side of the family. It's this project that I just need to wrap my head around and then get working on.

Anyway, my house is so quiet. As I mentioned before being alone can be glorious. Glorious in the sense when you can sneak away for a few quiet minutes, hours and be by yourself...precious moments. But I am not so sure an entire week alone will be glorious. I miss the buzz that is always floating around my house. I miss my kids, my hubby. I never lived alone so I think that's the hard part...figuring out what to do with myself since there is only me, myself an I to take care of. I am not going to be down about being alone -- last time they went to Little Rock and I stayed behind, I was so depressed. I didn't enjoy my time at all. I will use this time wisely -- getting projects completed or maybe starting a new one. I am also thinking of just doing something for myself...maybe a pedicure or a walk through the Botanical Gardens.

So for now, it's all quiet on my end!!

Happy Birthday Dad!

Today is my Dad's Birthday! Happy Birthday Dad! We celebrated his birthday on Sunday - along with Mother's Day and my Anniversary. I ended up not getting him a birthday card so opted instead to say these words. Usually, in any card I give my Dad, I put the words, "What I don't always say, is forever in my heart." So, this is for you Dad!


Dad, every year your birthday reminds me how grateful I am that you are my father. I'm thankful I get to watch you, to look up to you, being such a good example. What a privilege it is to observe your strengths, your competence and your love. I am so blessed to have been under your wing, your protection, your care, learning important lessons from you. I now use these lessons for my own children. But Dad, I don't always tell you when we share a special moment and it fills my heart with cheer. But, the memories are priceless. I don't always tell you how the love you give brightens every day that I live. I don't always tell you what's in my heart and that you are one of the most important parts. I don't always thank you for the many things you do or tell you how much I really love you. You are the first man I have ever loved. You are forever my Hero! So today Dad, I am saying what's in my heart...you mean the world to me! Happy Birthday! I love you!!

Lots

Lots of fun things, lots of not so fun things going on in my life lately. First off, weekends are just flying by too quickly lately. I am finding myself absolutely dreading Monday mornings and for that matter, Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday mornings. Fridays are good because at least I know that it's almost the weekend. I am trying to stay positive since I do not want my negative feelings on work to actually work the universe into having me lose my job. Just hope this economy turns around soon. We got notice last week that the firm was no longer going to be matching 401K contributions. So a little panic spread quickly around the firm last week. Hope this is just a precautionary measure and not a sign of something more horrific to come.

We also got the news from North Little Rock Police that Jimmy did not pass the written exam. He missed it by one point. We do not believe that the written part was solely based on the test but rather a mulitude of factors. Of course my hubby was bummed. My first reaction was to apologize, the second was a sign of relief - not relief that we wouldn't be moving because if that's what we would need to do, I'd be right there packing my bags, but relief that the fork in the road between STL and LR had a "Do not Enter" sign on it. This sign meant that we could focus on keeping our family in STL and work on obtaining goals that we could encounter here. My third response was "it wasn't meant to be". I truly believe that. It wasn't meant for our family to uproot to LR at this time. I just hope that soon, my hubby starts to see the end of his rainbow!

Saturday morning, we woke up bright and early to sunshine and looking forward to walking for a great cause! May 2nd is Childhood Stroke Awareness Day and what a better way to spend it than by walking in the AHA/ASA 2009 Walk. We walked in honor of our dear Godson Brendon and his cause BrendonsSmile! The event took place at Busch Stadium! So cool! Liz and Bryan also came down and walked with us. We displayed our purple BrendonsSmile shirts proudly! Olivia and Alex had a great time. Olivia was so tired and so hungry that by the end of the morning, she had had enough. She didn't want to do anything!! Once she got home and got some good food in her, my Olivia came back! I am so proud of my dear, best friend, Jessica for all her hard work in getting the word out for Brendon's cause. She is remarkable and has made so many strides in getting awareness that kids can have strokes too. You go girl!! So spread the word...if you tell one person and then they tell one person, think of how many people will hear about children having strokes. Knowledge is power! Here are a few pics from the walk!

Also on Saturday, Jimmy and I got to go out that night and celebrate our 12th wedding anniversary. Our anniversary really isn't until May 10th but this was the only weekend that worked with our schedule. We went to Jim Edmond's 15teen restaurant. Jimmy knows one of the owners there and he treated us to a bottle of champagne, an appetizer and dessert. We both had steaks for dinner and they were fabulous! I was so full! The kiddos were spending the night at Auntie and Uncle Bryan's, so we headed out to a friend's bar for a few drinks after dinner. After that we headed home and watched a movie in bed. We both were exhausted. I didn't sleep well and ending up waking up at 7 a.m. I tried to go back to sleep and dozed in and out for a few more hours. Finally succumbing and just getting up.

On Sunday afternoon, I met Liz, my aunt Deb Do and cousins Lori and Julie at Chevy's for lunch. It has been amazing, through this world of technology, being so fortunate to get to know some family members better. Even though my sister and I are considered "the next generation", it was so sweet of Lori and Julie to both say they felt close to us. I feel the same way!! We had a great lunch. We chatted and had many laughs - of course!! We decided that we needed to pick a date once a month and get any Klipsch cousin that wanted to join in the fun to come along. We picked P for our first letter. We are going to the Purse Store and to get pedicures. Both Lori and Julie had never had a pedicure. I told them my story of getting a pedicure before Liz's wedding when the lady took one look at my feet and declared "Oh, you need Special". I am definitely due again and am really looking forward to the 31st. To read more about the Alphabet lunch date, visit Lori's blog or her facebook page.

After lunch, I really wasn't feeling well. My throat is bothering me. So I went home and laid down for a little bit. Even though my house needed to be cleaned so bad and the laundry needed to get done, I just left it all. It will still be there! Hubby was sweet and did the dishes. It made out to be a nice weekend but one that just went way too quickly!

Before signing off, I want to send out a Woot Woot HAPPY BIRTHDAY Woot Woot to my cousin CJ who turned 16 on Saturday and to my nephew Nicky who turned 9 on Saturday! Time is just flying by!! And, I just heard today that CJ passed his driving test! Another Woot Woot! Congrats CJ!

Headache or Jimmy Legs

Recently, I have been having trouble with sinus headaches. For me, these radiate from behind one of my eyes usually. Lots of pressure. If I could poke my eye out when I get one of these, I would. I don't know what's so different this season because I have actually been doing very well with not having as many headaches and then within the last few months, they have been pretty constant. I have always been a headache sufferer and unfortunately, it's hereditary and even more unfortunately, Alex gets them too.

So as I was giving the kids their baths last night, I got a blinding sinus headache. I usually try and stay clear from any kind of sudafed late at night because of what it does to me (I'll explain in a minute) and opted to have a little relief instead. So, I took my Aleve Sinus (which contains the ingredient found in sudafed) and 3 Motrin. Within 20 minutes my headache was clearing up. Feeling good. Got kids to bed, and laid in bed myself and read for about 30 minutes. Then, I was exhausted and fell right to sleep -- way earlier than I usually do. Anyway, woke up about 2 hours later with Jimmy Legs!! For me, this wording came from a Seinfeld episode and because that is what my Dad says my Mom has --- Jimmy Legs. For me, Jimmy Legs feels like my leg is on vibrate and that I need to go run around. I can usually be found kicking my leg in the air to release some of that energy. However, it doesn't usually help. So I then found myself tossing and turning the rest of the night due to my Jimmy Legs. I was kind of thankful for the Jimmy Legs though because I could still feel the headache -- it was masked by the medication but definitely still there. So I just traded one demon for another.

Today I am just exhausted. Had to get up earlier than usual to get Alex to school early because his class is going to Jefferson City today. I definitely still have the buzz going in my leg and definitely feel the headache returning. Ugh! Motrin here I come!!

Toast to Liz

There's a saying that I love that reminds me of my relationship with Liz. It goes "When you're in jail, a good friend will be there to bail you out. A best friend will be in the cell next to you saying "Damn that was fun". Even though Liz and I are 10 years apart, she is my best friend and has always been by my side while growing up.

As you begin this chapter of your new life with Bryan, I can't help but reminisce. I remember the day mom and dad brought you home. You had on this teeny tiny little outfit with strawberries on it. Stevie was sick and we were staying at Grandma and Grandpa Inman's. Grandma brought us over so we could see you. As I looked at you through the glass door, I knew you were something special. Just yesterday, we were only kids sharing a room, and even a bed at one time. I used to love the times we'd stay up late...and I'd make you brush my hair or scratch my back. I loved our "Sister Days" going to the mall or driving to the park and just talking. We've had our share of laughs, we've had our share of tears and we've even had a few fights but I hope you see that I was ALWAYS right.

So here's a little sisterly advice. The next three hours will be interfused into hundreds of sequential split second events...the first dance, the father-daughter dance, the cutting of the cake and just dancing the night away. But something else is going to happen tonight. Something that I want you to cherish. After running out the door at the end of the night, I want you to turn around before slipping inside your getaway car, turn around and for one last time tonight, be lost in the emotions of others, feel the love of everyone here celebrating this wonderful day with you and when you close the door and are suddenly enveloped in quietness so loud you can hear your heart fluttering, I want you to remember the little girl who loved playing dress up; remember the little girl who loved gymnastics and cheerleading; remember the little girl who came to her sister and said ever so casually she was in love.

In our lifetime, we are gifted a small number of truly "landmark moments". They start out small enough say riding a two-wheeled bicycle or throwing your graduation hat in the air. These moments grow in power and significance. And it must be a perfect moment when you look into the eyes of the most loving, caring, giving individual that you've ever known and realize you've found true love. You definitely found your prince because for the last 4 years, you've not only had a smile on your face but in your heart as well.

As your older sister, I've always tried to protect you and shield you from harm. But looking at you and Bryan today, I've realized that you have someone to take over this job for me. Bryan, I love you, you are an amazing, special individual, someone that made my sister realize that she does deserve only the best.

Since you and Bryan love Cardinal baseball, to help you understand what really lies in store, let me explain this marriage thing with a baseball metaphor:

Winning or losing is not the point, nor who chalks up the most runs.
The key is reveling in the now and playing to have fun.
Sometimes you will make errors, sometimes you'll blast one out of the park.
But no matter what, you'll always be wanting to head home.

Liz, I am so proud of the woman you've grown to be and I'm so happy to share this day with you.

To my little siter Liz and to my new brother-in-law Bryan! [TOAST]

100th Post

This is my 100th post and what a better post than to let everyone know that Jimmy passed the physical test and possibly the written test for the North Little Rock Police today. I am so excited for my hubby! The journey is just beginning here...there will be a few more steps before the real question is answered...whether or not he takes the job and the STL Morgan's become the LR Morgan's. I will keep you posted.

In the meantime, way to go Jimmy!!! I am so proud of you!!

Hello Darlin'...It's been a long time

You guessed it, I am a closet Conway Twitty lover!! I really do love some of his songs but felt that this blog deserved this title due to my long absence. Wow, can't believe it's been a few months. I have been moving in fast forward since the new year started. First things first, my baby boy turned 10. Double digits! How did this happen?! On the same day, my baby sis got married. I had the most amazing time preparing for her wonderful day (all the bridal shows, the showers, the bachelorette party, the dress fittings were all just so much fun) and then, having the honor to stand next to her on her wedding day. Amazing -- just all so amazing!! (Mandy, don't worry, I will post my toast for you soon.)

No sooner was the wedding over than my new little nephew Jackson arrived...a tad early and without the baby shower that was planned. But as everyone knows, babies do not care about schedules. So instead of spending money on the shower, I went out and bought much needed supplies for Christine and Jackson instead. Sooo much fun!! I did get Christine's personalized "Jackson" bracelet complete along with the personalized burp cloths but still need to finish the quilt. Of course, I think Jackson is as sweet as can be and every time I see pictures I just want to hold him and kiss his cheeks!! The feelings I feel about Jackson surprised me a little. I am already an aunt to Jimmy's sister's three kids but there's something about being an aunt for the first time to your siblings own child that is just amazing!! I wanted to be there for my little brother, emotions running high, can't believe he is a daddy now. I think I probably wore him out texting him everyday to see how my peanut was doing. He, of course, obliged me and even asked a few questions here and there. I feel so honored that he invited me to the hospital to be there waiting when Jackson arrived into this world. Alex just beamed when he saw Jackson and Olivia said "he's beautiful" and even sang him Happy Birthday. Still puts a lump in my throat whenever I think about it!!

So, my life is running full circle...we've had a birth, a marriage and even a death. Jimmy's aunt lost her battle to cancer on March 31st. Her form of cancer was rare and very painful. So thankful she is finally at peace. Such an amazing woman. She will be missed by many! RIP Wanda!

The other craziness going on is something that has brought me many mixed feelings. Jimmy is pursuing his dream of becoming a police officer. He was working towards getting into the City of St. Louis Police when a new Chief took over and changed a few rules. Jimmy became ineligible during the process. That was a sad day in the Morgan household. Emotions were very high for quite some time. However, he is not letting one municipality's "no" stop him. However, and this is a big however, this is also allowing him to obtain his dream in another city and state. We are traveling to Little Rock this weekend for Jimmy to begin his testing with the North Little Rock Police. He will need to pass the written and the physical in order to continue on being eligible. I am so nervous...I hate these big anticipation moments that you have no control over! If he makes it, there is a possibility we will pursue moving to Little Rock. When he and I discussed this at the beginning of the year, I admit, it brought about a new found hope and excitement. I started thinking of being able to afford a home I always wanted (cost of living is so much cheaper there) and being so family-connected. Jimmy's family see's each other often -- almost daily. We dealt with that when his Mom and Dad lived here and a part of me really misses it. Olivia loves playing with her cousins and if given a choice, would move there in an instant. Alex, of course, is not so keen on the idea of moving away from all his friends. So, after all the excitment wore off of this possibility and with the arrival of my new little nephew and the future of my sister starting her family, this endeavor has stirred up mixed feelings. Granted, I have had lots of support from Jimmy's family. All worrying that I will be happy if we move there. I think it will be a huge adjustment and I will miss my sister the most!! Makes me want to cry thinking about it but...OK, let's not speculate. We will have more definite answers after Saturday when we know if Jimmy has passed or not. I pray he passes but only the Lord knows in which direction we are meant to go.

The other big weight on my heart and shoulders is my job. I am just not feeling it. I am totally grateful for having a job and most days do not even let myself think these thoughts for fear that I will become like one of the unfortunate 30 my firm let go in March. But, my heart is just not into it. I feel that I really need to be in more of a creative atmosphere. My sister, aunt and I share a dream and have discussed a possibility but with this economy so sucky right now, we cannot even being to speculate. I do hope one day our dreams do come true!! If not for all of us maybe at least one of us!!

So, that's been my life in a nutshell....kids are doing great. Oh, We have made the decision after speaking with Olivia's teachers that she be held back from attending Kindergarten next year. Jimmy had a really hard time accepting this. He looked at more of her intellect instead of her maturity level. I think we made the right choice. I hope we made the right choice! I pray we made the right choice!!

Before I sign off, I want to extend a very heartfelt THANK YOU to two of my Aunt's - Aunt Debbie and Deb Do. You both are such amazing woman. Each one with traits that I truly admire and that truly inspire! Each one of you holds a special place in my heart and I am so grateful for the relationship that we have. You both inspire me to be just like you to my new little nephew and possible future nieces and nephews. Thank you for always being there for me. And even though I may not always say it, it is forever in my heart...Thank you and Love you!

And, to my sister! You are the best! Thank you for always being there for me and for my kiddos. You mean the absolute world to me!! I am so blessed to not only call you my sis but to also call you my best friend!! Love you!!

Up and coming photographer

We found out on Sunday that my daughter has quite the knack for taking pictures. She helped Grandma take pictures during Auntie's shower. Apparently, most of those pictures were usable. After the shower, while she was patiently waiting for Auntie, Olivia picked up my camera and took pictures around Bryan's mom's house. I have to admit -- she is good for 4 years old. Just take a look:

Grandma giving Olivia her lesson in photography

Olivia the photographer

Cute dog on the fireplace

Candles, candles and candles

Grapes

Lauren

Doggie on the fireplace up close

Lizzie (Lauren's dog)

Another puppy

Sisters

Shout Out!

Just wanted to give a shout out to Alex for making his second basket of the season at last night's basketball game! Woot Woot!! Good job Buddy!! We are so proud of you!!

19 on the 19th

Nineteen years ago today, on February 19, 1990, the world lost an amazing man. My Grandpa - Bob Inman. Wow, I can't believe it's been 19 years. I guess the reason is because I remember that day like it was yesterday. I remember what I was doing that day. I went to school and then to work at McDonalds. They had asked me to stay a little longer when my shift was over. I called home to let my Mom know -- no answer. As soon as I got home and my Mom and Dad finally got home, I knew. My Mom hugged me tight saying "Her Daddy was gone!" I remember what I wore to the wake and funeral. I remember watching my Grandma rub my Grandpa's hand during the wake. I remember after the funeral, with everyone around, my Grandma just breaking down and sobbing at the kitchen table. I remember visiting my Grandma after he had been gone and thinking every time I went over there that I would just see him walk down the hallway into the kitchen. I remember needing a pair of boxer shorts for school - either to wear under my uniform - or for a special something or other and Grandma giving me 2 pairs of Grandpa's (he had never worn them), one yellow and one green and they were my favorite! During my freshman year in college, I was taking an English Composition class -- I wrote about my Grandpa and about his funeral. To this day, I cannot hear the song "Be Not Afraid" and not think of that moment, the whole family huddled together, walking down the center aisle at St. Francis of Assisi church, to pay our last respects to this wonderful father, grandfather, uncle, brother. For me, losing my Grandpa was the first family death I actually experienced. I had lost Great-Grandparents before but was to small to attend and remember. This one was huge for me. A few years before that, when Aunt Rosemary passed away, I remember begging my Mom -- please let me attend her funeral. I was scared. I did not know what to expect from a funeral but I knew that I needed to attend. I needed to be prepared. Was this a premonition that in just a year and a few months I knew one of my own loved ones was going to pass away? I don't know. I do know that when my Grandpa went into the hospital, I didn't go visit him because I knew he wasn't coming home and didn't want to remember him that way. For many years after his death, on the anniversary of his death, at the time of his death, I would stop what I was doing and pray the "Our Father" and say a little prayer to him. Maybe that is why we are connected. I love the old picture of him I posted above -- not only because it's just a fabulous picture of a fabulous man but because it's uncanny how much my brother resembles him in this photo. Every time I look at it I see my brother. I love that. I have such wonderful memories of this man. I remember one day driving over to just visit with him. My Grandma wasn't home and I knew that. I just wanted to visit with him. Apparently, he loved that because later that day, when he talked to Deb Do, he asked her "guess who came and visited me today?" and told her all about our visit. I still have the birthday card my Grandpa gave me on my 16th birthday. He went to the store and picked it out by himself. Only he signed it. It was a treasure then and now. My sixteenth birthday was also the last birthday of mine he attended. On my seventeenth birthday, he was in the hospital. He called me during the party and it just meant the world to me. I could go on and on about the things I remember about this man but I'll stop here. I wish my kids had the pleasure of knowing him. He would have loved them. I know Olivia would have gotten the biggest kick out of him!!

Love you and Miss you Grandpa!! Talk to you later!!

Dreams

I believe that dreams can sometimes be a way to connect with the spiritual world -- if you don't believe me, read the blog entry titled "60 Years" - the one I wrote in June of 2008 regarding my grandparents. Anyway, the last two nights now, deceased loved ones have appeared in my dreams. My mother-in-law has made an appearance both nights. In my dream Sunday night, someone thrust 2 photos in my hand of my grandparents and my mother-in-law and said they wanted/needed them here and would I please, since I have a connection with them, please conjure them up -- if I recall, we were having some kind of party. I did my magic and lights appeared signaling they were there. I don't think they physically appeared however, my mother-in-law did. Then last night she made another appearance in my dream. I can't recall really why she was there or what the dream was about but when I woke up, the first thing I thought was...Mary was in my dream again. What does this mean? I told Jimmy and he said "maybe she was telling us to move to Little Rock". I said "Or maybe she was saying not to go". Hmm...very weird. Wish I knew what the message was!!!

I do love dreams where I get to connect with my deceased loved ones and actually remember it. I've had a few of my Grandma Connelly -- where I've gotten to hug her and tell her I miss her. She and I always talked about visiting after she died. I used to ask her over and over if she would come back to visit me. She was visited by her father after he passed and so believed this could happen. She always assured me I would get a visit from her. I have also had a few with my Grandma Inman and of course, the infamous dream with my Grandpa Inman. He and I usually just talk and I "feel" his presence. He usually doesn't visit my dreams. I know some think this is just all bull-hockey but I believe it and am so grateful for the moments I get to share with them - just one more time!!

Valentine's Weekend

My Valentine Weekend was one of the best weekends I have had in a long time! It started out with a bridal shower for Liz at Chevy's. A couple of friends from Premier Care got together for her. Had a great time and got the chance to catch up with one of my good friends - Shannon - as well. I wanted to go to the bookstore after the shower but completely forgot. My week was not so pleasant -- the sewer backed up in the basement leaving my house smelling like...well you know "CRAP!!". Ugh. Had Roto Rooter out 3 days in a row - it's still not fixed. Then, I had to prepare for Olivia's Preschool Valentine Party. As much as I love being head room parent, this job stressed me out. I have to have everything perfect and really put a lot of thought into the goodie bags, craft and games for the girls. So, by the time Friday rolled around, I was feeling a little overwhelmed but extremely thankful the weekend was upon me. So anyway, back to my weekend -- forgot to go to the bookstore. However, that worked out in my favor. My best friend JJ called me on my way home. She is in sunny FL and I miss her terribly. I hate that I can't just pick the phone up to call her. I really needed to talk to her. Actually, after speaking with her, she really needed to talk to me too. I am so grateful for her. Then, my hubby and kids surprised me with Valentine cards and chocolates. Usually, at these small holidays, I buy for myself. Well, they surprised me. I loved everything.

On Saturday, we decided to make it a day for everyone -- not just me and Jimmy. Alex had a basketball game and after the game, we went for one of our favorite meals -- seafood. We went to Joe's Crab Shack in IL for lunch -- well it ended up being a late lunch. Olivia devoured her crab as soon as I cracked it and put it on her plate. She could probably eat her weight in crab! After lunch, we went over to Sports Authority and got Jimmy a new pair of crocs and Alex a new competitive swimsuit. His other suit got holes in it from being scraped on the no-slip strips along the pool edge and with a meet coming up this weekend, he needed a new one. After that, my Valentine present consisted of going to the bookstore. My love, my passion! I love books!! When JJ and I talked Friday night, she told me about a book she was reading and the author. I decided it sounded like an author I wanted to read and so I got the book. Actually, I got 2 books that I wanted. Olivia picked up a stuffed "Olivia". Olivia is the character in Ian Falconner's books called Olivia. She is a pig with an attitude. Olivia has a few of these books and they recently made the book into a series on Nickelodeon that she loves to watch. After the bookstore, we headed over to Gamestop for Jimmy and Alex's Valentine gifts. They both got a new video game. We had such a great day being together. It really was one of the best Valentine's days I've had! I love spending time with my hubby and kids.

Sunday was a great day as well. We took the kids out for breakfast at a restaurant down the street from our house. After breakfast, we went stopped off again at Sports Authority. I noticed at breakfast that Olivia's crocs were busted at the toe. Those are her main shoes -- she loves her crocs. So we got Olivia a new pair. I also picked up a pair of soccer shorts for Olivia. They were on clearance for $3 to good to pass up. In the fall, she will get to play soccer. I can't wait. We also stopped in Pet Smart. They had a few dogs for adoption. We have been thinking of getting a new puppy. We also checked out the cats but can't convince hubby to go for that one - yet! Then, we headed to Wal-Mart and grocery shopped. I really hate grocery shopping but since Wal-Mart became a Supercenter, that's the only place I go now. I love that I can do all my shopping at one place. We were actually in Wal-Mart for a couple of hours. After that, we headed home to do some home things -- laundry, dishes, etc. Alex had another basketball game and we had to do our concession stand duty. Jimmy happily obliged and took the "duty hour". Liv and I stayed home. I made a pot of Jambalaya for dinner and got ready to start my week. Jimmy and the kids got the luxery of having today off. I hated that this awesome weekend had to come to an end. So here's to hoping my week is as pleasant as my weekend was!!

Happy Anniversary Mom and Dad!

Happy 37th Anniversary to my Mom and Dad!

I am so proud of my parents. Proud that despite the odds of marrying so young with a baby on the way, these two have perservered. And here they are 37 years later and still going strong. My parents have taught me what commitment is really all about. They sacrificed things for me that I will never know. They taught me about life and love. For all the memories they have given me, I will be forever grateful.

So tonight, we are going out to dinner to celebrate. I am really looking forward to it and can't wait to give them my gift. Ever since I saw this, I have been wanting to get them one. I hope they like it.

Here's to you Mom and Dad. May you have many more years together!

I love you!

Cancer Sucks!

I hate cancer! I hate the word...I hate everything about it! Have you ever watched a loved one deteriorate from cancer? I have! Cancer is a disease that not only affects the person with cancer but also the loved ones watching as the one they love slowly becomes a shell of their former self. Jimmy's aunt is suffering from a form of cancer. My prayers are for her find peace and comfort during this time. I also pray that Uncle Bill can find peace and comfort during this time as well.

Little Rock

We finally got to celebrate Christmas with Jimmy's family last weekend in Little Rock. It was so nice to get out of this snowy, cold weather and into the sunny, warm weather of Little Rock. The temps were in the high 60's and low 70's. I ran an errand on Saturday and actually opened my sunroof. I am definitely one of those people who get depressed from the winter weather. Sun really does perk my up. So it was just the right pick me up!!

It was a quick trip -- we didn't leave STL until 5 p.m. It was kind of creepy and scary driving down the portion of the highway between just before Cape to after Blytheville -- those areas were hit really hard with ice and there was no power. No lights along the highway as we drove along. The highway was clear but snow was piled up on the side of the road unlike here were on the highway, the snow was cleared away. Of course, Olivia had to stop for a potty break -- we pulled off at a rest stop to find it was pitch black. The facilities were hit by the ice and no electric. Quick thinking, Jimmy held her like he was going to swing her - so she was in a sitting position and held her pants while she did her business. Hey, sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do and when a 4 year old proclaims she's gotta go, there is no time for thinking. As we were leaving the rest stop, Jimmy said he could hear all the ice and trees breaking. I pulled out of the spot and started on my way -- bright lights on -- but wait, what is THAT? Eeeww, gross, is that a RAT? Yep and not just 1 but 6! We saw 6 rats scamper away as we were driving out of the rest stop. I loudly proclaimed we are NEVER stopping at another rest area again!!!

We made it to Little Rock about 10:30 p.m. Got ourselves situated and had a nice chat with my father-in-law before proceeding to bed. Jimmy and Alex were getting up early to go see my nephew Nicky race his car in the Pinewood Derby. He proudly won "Best Design". Nicky and Brian (my bro-in-law) designed a penguin car and a whole penguin village after Club Penguin -- the newest Disney game craze.

That afternoon, Jim and I prepared a homemade spaghetti sauce -- we actually made our own -- no jars. It turned out pretty good for our first try. I made up a lasagna for dinner. We were having a few friends over that night -- Jimmy hooked up with a couple that we haven't seen in 6 years on Facebook. They are good friends of the Morgan's. They have a son who was born on the same day as Alex. It was so good to see Robert and Adrienne. We had a fantastic dinner. Lasagna turned out pretty good despite the fact that we smoked the kitchen/house up because the pan tilted in the oven and spilled juice which caused the smoke. Ugh! Oh well,

We left Little Rock early to head back to STL so Jimmy could go to his Superbowl Party. With it being daylight, we watched as we left the comfy, warm area of Little Rock and headed into the cold area of STL. We watched the temp jump from 65 to 45 in a matter of minutes. Ugh! It was such a downer to see all the snow again! I am ready for spring!! For flowers! For sun!!!

Overall, it was a nice trip...I hate to say this because I know there are some in my family who don't want to discuss this possibility, but we are considering moving to Little Rock. Jimmy is going to apply at the police department there. I have been checking out houses online. It is amazing to me the difference in housing costs there compared to here. I can get the house I have always wanted there for half the cost or more. That kind of house here in STL would never be obtainable. The cost of private elementary school is about what we pay now so no difference there but the cost of private high school education is drastically lower there than here. And with high school not far in our future, it is something we have to consider. There are many downsides to leaving STL - family and friends but we would be moving to a place where family and friends are also. I couldn't move to a place where I don't know anyone. I don't make friends easily since I am a bit shy. I am at peace with this decision should it come to this. However, I won't let myself think about leaving my baby sister behind. She is the one I would miss the most. We see each other the most. She sees my kids the most. I usually only see my parents and brother once a month sometimes longer - they are busy. I want my kids to experience having a family close. When my mother-in-law was alive and they lived here, Mary saw Alex every day (ok, she took him to the babysitter) but we also saw them almost every weekend. I miss that closeness. I have also connected with old friends via Facebook lately and some of them are no longer in STL even though their families are. I know it can be done and that I can still maintain closeness with my STL family and friends. We'll see if that is the direction the Lord wants us to take. And if it takes us out of town, we'll visit often. We'll see!

Deceptively Delicious

So in our effort to get healthy in 2009, we decided that we would try to incorporate more veggies into our diet. Let me say that I am not a vegetable lover. The vegetables I will eat consist of spinach (love it - whether fresh or canned), peas and corn. I can stand brocolli and cauliflower is low doses but it doesn't get bought often. I cannot stand green beans and carrots. Well, in an effort to help my kids also get more veggies into their daily intake, I bought the book by Jessica Seinfeld, Deceptively Delicious.

This book shows you how to sneak some veggies into recipes unnoticed. I am not into "deceiving" the kids because I want them to know how to eat healthy but I do like the concept of putting pureed veggies into recipes to get MORE of them. So I picked the recipes I thought the kids would like...blueberry lemon muffins, cheesesticks, chicken salad, mac and cheese. Bought all the ingredients and had a great time steaming and pureeing the veggies. Jimmy cut up all the veggies...I put them in the steamer my Mom and Dad gave me for my birthday last year (which I had yet to use! See, not much of a veggie lover!) and once the veggie were steamed, put them in the food processor to puree. Easy Peasy! We pureed cauliflower, zucchini, carrots, yellow squash and butternut squash. I had never tried butternut squash before and after I pureed it, I gave it a taste...it was yummy!

After all the veggies were steamed and pureed, I only had time to make the muffins. The secret ingredient in the muffins was yellow squash. They turned out good. Alex liked them, I liked them, Jimmy liked them and my blueberry freak Olivia -- HATED it. OK, I was not going to give up just yet. The next night, I made the chicken salad for Jimmy and I -- it wasn't bad -- I did think it was too liquidy so I will reduce the amount of mayo and yogurt in that one but overall, it was good -- that recipe's secret ingredient was cauliflower. Since Olivia loves cheese -- I thought I would try the cheesesticks -- the secret ingredient in that is also cauliflower. The recipe calls for you to freeze the prepared cheesesticks in the freezer for 20 minutes. I highly recommend doing that because I didn't and it did not hold in cheesestick form -- it was basically splatted-looking cheese on a plate. I put a few on a plate for my daughter who took one look at it and declared quite loudly that "these are not cheesesticks". I begged and pleaded for her to please just try it. They were really good -- they just didn't look good. I got her to take a tiny bite which she promptly became grossed out by the taste and spit out. OK, what is up with this...my daughter who loves fruit and veggies and rarely eats meat is not loving my Deceptively Delicious recipes! The cheesesticks were a hit with Jimmy and Alex though. I am so excited that Alex is taking a liking to these recipes. He's usually my picky eater but he has embraced this new trial period.

Mac n cheese -- thought for sure this would be a good one -- secret ingredient is butternut squash. Again, in my effort to cook healthy for my family, we have stopped using the "white" pastas and use the whole wheat pasta. I didn't have macaroni noodles but I had rotini noodles -- the spiral ones -- made up the recipes and again, Olivia took one look at it loudly proclaimed she was not eating that! She did eat the noodles without the "cheese" sauce though. Alex thought it was just OK. I think the cheese mixture was a little too thick and plus, we didn't have the correct noodles. I will try this one again.

I will continue my quest for recipes that allows us to incorporate more fruits and veggies into our diet and will let you know how it goes. I have pictures of my purees but the usb cable on my camera isn't working but I will post as soon as I get a new one. I felt so accomplished after completing this process! 1 point for Mom (but don't tell Olivia!).

Basketball

Here are some basketball pics of Alex. He really does love to play. This year, the boys got a new coach and let me say, it's been a world of difference. They have won both of their games so far this year! Go St. Ambrose!!!

Been meaning to...

blog since Monday but just haven't gotten around to it. I am finally sitting down and reflecting on the last week. These last few weeks have been good...we are all good. I finally feel positive - like things are going to be OK. I feel like we are starting this new year on a good foot...granted, we have had many stumbles but overall, I am feeling pretty good.

The question did come up again last week about whether Olivia really is truly ready for Kindergarten. Intellectually, she is ready. Maturity-wise, I am not so sure. Miss Michelle gave me some information on a seminar she attended called Love and Logic. You know what? It's some good stuff. I used a tactic on Alex and low and behold, it worked like a charm... It seems to be working with Olivia as well. I realized that a lot of her actions were reflections of my actions and the way I was living my life. I truly seek peace and happiness in my life. My actions as a wife and mother did not reflect such. I'm working on it.

Saturday, Alex had a basketball game. They won again! Go St. Ambrose!! We went to Apollonia - a Greek restaurant on Gravois - let me just say this was the best lunch I have had in a looong time. Olivia didn't eat much. We ordered Saganaki - flaming cheese - because she loves cheese and cheese sticks. But she wasn't liking the fact that her cheese was set on fire so she didn't eat any. We ended up getting her a salad and figured she would probably like the gyro meat - she is not a big meat eater but I thought she might like it - nope -- wouldn't touch the meat. Me, Jimmy and Alex each got a Gyro and it was sooo delicious. I only could eat half. Actually, all 3 of us had leftovers. It was so delicious, I had my leftover for dinner that night. Even warmed up, it was delish!! Definitely looking forward to visiting there again. It also didn't hurt that we got to eat for free. The manager had been asking Jimmy to come in and when he saw us, he took everything off our bill. So we left a hefty tip for the waiter. After lunch, we thought we would go work off some of our food and thought how fun it would be to go to Rollercade and roller skate. Unfortunately, they have funky hours. We got there at 3:10 and they close at 4. The lady was going to charge us the full price for 45 minutes...I don't think so. Needless to say, we had a very upset little girl. We are going to try and go again this weekend. That night, we played board games. Alex and Liv played a game of Candyland and we were getting ready to play Scrabble when Jimmy decided Monopoly would be better since Liv could play. Let me just say, I hate Mono-poly!! It takes forever!! 3 hours later, I was declared the Winner!! Woo Hoo! ! I have never won at Monopoly!!! What!! Crazy!!!

Sunday we had breakfast and then played a game of Chutes and Ladders!! Fun time at the Morgan's!! Sunday and Monday we just relaxed...I have been reading a really good book -- actually, a new vampyre series. I finished the first book within a few days and started on the second. I am now about 30 pages from finishing the second and have the third book on hold at the library. I love when I find books I can't put down!! Well, till next time!

Found It!

We found it...the perfect flower girl dress for Olivia. Me, Liz and Olivia went to David's Bridal (which I was appalled at the amount of chaos in that store), another Bridal store (that had a funky pickle and vinegar smell) and to Shaely Bugs in West Co. Mall. Shaely Bugs is where we got it. It is the one dress that is pretty similar to Liz's and just looks so adorable on her. Has lots of sparkle-shiny, as we like to say. And, we also picked up her mini tiara. Can we just say cutie-patootie? Now all we need are the shoes and Olivia is set and ready for the big day.

The other thing I think that was "found" today was Alex's confidence! My baby boy scored his first ever basket in his basketball game today. Can I just say how proud of him I am. We kept telling him he can try and shoot for the basket too. He finally tried it and he made it!!! Swish!! After he made the basket, he pumped his arm in the arm, yelled "yes" and was just so excited. All the parents cheered for him and I, of course, got all choked up. Couldn't help it. I love seeing my baby succeed and find his confidence! They won their game 18-8. It was a great first game! Hopefully now, they will be on a role and keep winning. These boys definitey deserve it!!

TGIF!

I am so thankful it is Friday. This has been one loooong week! We have tried getting back into a routine and by yesterday I think we were finally getting there. This weekend will be pretty busy. To start off, me and the kids met my Mom and sister at the mall to look for flowergirl dresses for Olivia and sucker-inner shapewear for under our dresses. Let me just say that I have my work cut out for me. When I tried this one pair on, my fat was saying..."and you want me to go where?" I started to feel defeated and discourage but I told myself that I just need to work harder! It's been kind of hard this week because I am still in pain from having fallen on the ice on Tuesday. It hurts to just bend over...ugh! So left the mall and finally got some food into my kiddos. Alex had a 9:15 p.m. basketball game. I was trying to be a nice spouse and have Jimmy relax at home with Olivia but I ended up with such a headache from not eating all day that I just couldn't. I feel bad too because he worked until 3 a.m. last night and was up at 7:00 a.m. for work -- he's worked both jobs again today and is going back out again tonight and working. Poor guy but I am so thankful he went in my place. I told him he could sleep all day tomorrow and I would take Alex to his basketball game at noon. Tomorrow afternoon, we are going back out looking for flower girl dresses. Looking forward to it. Olivia is such a princess...she loved the whole trying dresses on. The problem...she is so little that it's hard finding a dress to fit her. We narrowed it down to 2 but they are too big. We are going to see if the other store's location has them or anything different. Can't wait. Sunday will be another basketball game unless they lose tonight and catching up on the house cleaning and laundry. So glad it's the weekend. Whew...

Oomph!!

So this morning as I turned on the news and heard the area was covered in ice, I was hoping there would be no school today! Not the case! So, got Jimmy and Alex out the door and was waiting to hear how the roads were. Since Olivia didn't have class today, there was no need for us to hurry. Jimmy called at 7:58 a.m. to say all was well and roads weren't bad. Guess I better get into gear. Got me and Olivia ready to go. I thought I'd wear my tennis shoes to work and bring my heels so I don't slip. Sounded like a good plan. So, I let Maggie outside, made breakfast and packed our lunches. Time to go. Go to the door with my hands full...purse, work bag, lunch, Olivia's backpack, keys...to find that Maggie can't get back up the steps because they are covered in ice. I step out ever so carefully and slide just a bit. Nice, porch and stairs covered in ice. I manage to get Maggie back up without a mishap. Go back up the stairs to lock the door. Warn Olivia a million times that the porch and steps are icy and to be careful. She makes it no problem. Then I make it. OK...we are good. Fast forward to arriving at Olivia's school. There's a funeral so no parking in front of the school. I have to park across the street. No problem. Get out of my car and walk around to get Olivia out but before I can get there...ssshhhbooomp! I totally hit the pavement!! Landed square on my butt! This probably looked like a scene in a movie with my legs flying in front of me!! Of course this had to be witnessed by 2 other people who were standing nearby! They did express concern but I just couldn't bear to look at them. I landed right on my tailbone...ouch! Of course, the entire area near Olivia's door was covered in ice. I stepped carefully to her door and managed to get her out of her car seat. I told her to go to Alex's door and wait for me. I didn't want to risk her falling. My bum is throbbing!! I guess that's what I get for thinking if I waited a little everything would be fine. Just hope my bodycast goes with my bridesmaid dress! ;)

Happy Ending!

The end of my two week vacation draws to a close. I have been so busy these last 2 weeks that I might need a vaction from this vacation! Nah, it was fabulous -- we enjoyed Christmas with my family (and are looking forward to Christmas with the Morgan's in a few weeks), we went to the park and the zoo with our wonderful friends JJ and Brendon when we had such amazing weather, celebrated New Years Eve at Chuck E Cheese, went to the dr. for a check up, helped address 180 invitations for Lizzie's wedding and went to Houlihan's for lunch with sis and Amanda today. Who could ask for so many blessings in just 2 short weeks. I didn't get all the "projects" I had planned to be completed during my vacation, didn't get the laundry done, didn't get my house all spic and span but what I did do was enjoy my kids and enjoy my time off! Me and the kids had a fantastic vacation together. However, I'll be sorry when tomorrow morning comes and I have to wake each one up -- routine shmoutine -- who needs a routine when you are on vacation? Hopefully all will go smoothly. For now, baths have been given, lunches made and hopefully kiddos are asleep. Guess I better get to bed now too...Goodnight!